The things nobody tells you

There are many things they don’t tell you about what to expect once you’re out of school. They don’t tell you that all your money will be going to pay your bills and putting food in your stomach. They don’t tell you how much time you’ll waste sitting in an office chair in your dress pants and blazer watching your mornings and afternoons pass you by. They don’t tell you how little energy you’ll have by the end of the day once you’ve gotten home from your 9-5 job. How even once you get home there is an infinite pile of things still left to do. They don’t tell you that your weekends will become a time to recuperate rather than time to do what you please. They don’t tell you that you’ll find yourself couponing and selling old things on eBay to earn some extra cash. They don’t tell you have limiting a set vacation limit is, how you can’t travel and explore the world from a corporate vacation schedule.

Nobody tells you how exhausting the real world is. I was so eager to be done with college and eager to have more time and not have to worry about classes. A job takes up 2x the amount of time a course load took, not to mention that your time is all pushed to the weekends, if you even feel like using any of it by the time your weekend comes. There are days when I don’t even bat an eye at the life I currently have. Me and my boyfriend have a nice one bedroom apartment, with a cat, and we make more than enough money to cover all that we need. But no matter how much opportunity I have, I still feel like I’m coming up short. Like there is more that I’m supposed to do with my day, that I lack a purpose or something. I don’t know if this will fix anything, but if I don’t write it down now then when I find myself years down the road doing the same thing, maybe I’ll be able to look at it differently, or maybe I’ll have a better story of unexpected things to tell.

Bored in the workplace

As of August 22nd, I will have worked in this corporate job for two months. It seems like the longer I'm here the less I actually want to be here. In a rush to find a job out of college, I didn't take the time to find a job I would actually enjoy having. But of course while looking for one, any job that paid well seemed like a good job. I spend most of my eight hour days counting down till I go home, or playing games on my phone. I finished two mangas in maybe 3 weeks. That's the kind of time I have on my hands. I always figured a new job would be exciting, or maybe just more than this. I heard stories from my coworkers of late nights to finish proposals etc and I'm trying to figure out why it takes them so long. I feel like I can finish everything they give me in about 10 minutes max! I have yet to have a full days work of work even when I was working on a proposal. I'm told things will pick up, but in the meantime boredom is getting the best of me.